It Is Indeed True

Who has heard the thing about eating sugar before you go to bed makes you have bad dreams?
I know I have, and unfortunately for me, I've had [even just a tiny bit of] sugar before bed and I had nightmares...for 4 nights in a row. Last night was finally my one night I slept decently good with pleasant dreams.

If you don't dream...That's okay, I would honestly rather just sleep and not dream than have nightmares.

This isn't going to be a very long post, considering I should be trying to sleep by now...
But I'm also waiting for my Hulu to buffer, haha.
So in the mean time, I just thought I would post up my own personal thought of the evening.

...Meh, why not just combine two thoughts into one post...?

So here's my dilemma:
I found out yesterday that my boyfriend is going out of the country next month for a mission trip to help orphans. What people do on the missions like that, I have no idea, for I have never done one.
But anyways, remember my post about California being so evil and taking everyone away from me?
Yeah well, he was gone for almost two weeks there. I try [or more so try not to] think about how in the hell I'm going to be able handle him being gone for long.
I almost lost my own sanity when he went to California [mainly because all I did was went to work, went home, eat, shower, sleep. Repeat cycle] But this time I have friends still here and school and whatnot.
I told him last night that the whole idea was really bothering me.
I mean, I know he's going for a good cause. And truly, good for him...I'm really proud of him.
But I did tell him I honestly didn't know how I could handle him being gone [OUT OF THE COUNTRY] I didn't know if I could stay with him for the time he's gone or not.

I asked a few friends what I should do to handle this situation, because of course it's going to be hard for me to deal with, it breaks my heart just thinking about him being gone and then our relationship starts to feel like an hour glass.
Well anyways, one of my friends told me I should take a break from him [in other words, break up until he gets back]. I don't want to do that...that would hurt both him and myself and probably ruin a lot of trust stuff, and I love him far too much to do that. Then another friend more so said they were sorry to hear that I have to go through that. But I think they were basically thinking...or telling me that I should deal with it. Logical choice. Wait until he gets back, and everything will be fine.

It truly just kills me to let him leave me [over and over and over again, I might add]...Well leave me in the sense of being elsewhere without me.
It brings me back to not expecting to have these feelings towards him and care for him as much as I really do, but I'm not going to go into all of that.
Anyhow. You, being my reader and all...what do you suppose I should do in this situation? I would just like to have other's opinions.

Anyways, I'm pretty sure Hulu is done buffering.
Goodnight all!